God Is Working(29/12/05)- Thursday

Indeed I was so glad to be at home so that I could give some moral encouragement at this time of need. As I (and we) prayed persistently for grandpa’s recovery, I also prayed for restoration of our relationship with one another within our family – that father and children relationship, and among sibling – will be restored and that there will be unity within our heart.
As we went through this time together, I truly can see God working so greatly and wonderfully in our family.
Grandpa is the strongest man I’ve (if I can say, We) ever seen, been able to work everyday and be able to go to the estate almost every time. Since after this stroke, he looked so different and weak when I saw him this evening, as my parents and I went to visit grandpa in the ICU. But we gave the best encouragement to him and stood by strongly to pray for and with him. This was the only time that we’ve ever seen grandpa shed tears, as our close family dropped by for visits.
After the visit in the evening, I followed my parents to get some fill to our stomach and had a walk around Ipoh.
After the walk we went back to the hospital to pay grandpa another visit. Thank God that he was shifted to another personal room, so that he could rest better. I was so glad and surprised to see a lot of my close relatives already there when I entered the new, large room. The atmosphere was different and grandpa also looked so much better and stronger now compared to a few hours ago. I truly praise the Lord for His healing work on my grandpa and for His miracle. I believe He is still working by now, as my grandpa rests in the room.
I was so overjoyed when we left that I started hopping around happily and joyfully.
As my relatives and my parents and I went for dinner (and supper) together after the visit, my father offered to bring them to dim sum. As we shared the night together, I can also see God moving within our relationship among us. I also truly thank God that He also brought restoration upon my relationship with my father. All this while, I was not so close to my father and I also feared him. As the Lord brought breakthrough today, I just can sense that we can connect better this evening and the fatherly figured, whom I feared all this while became a friend to me. I truly thank God for His work and breakthrough upon our lives. I also looked forward with a heart of expectation, for more breakthroughs in the days ahead.
I also believe that He will also bring breakthroughs in our close relatives – especially the Ngo’s and See’s family – and also in our relationship with every family, that there’ll be unity and agreement and understanding among us.
I also believe that 2006 will be a year of favors, blessings, and breakthrough within Goh family. Praise the Lord! His name is exalted and praised above all!
Hallelujah!

God Is In Control (28/12/05)

After breakfast today, I looked blankly at the wood of my home, trying to think of what to do today. I just sensed that there was something for me to do today, but I just couldn’t figure it out at the moment. So I figured out that I would be baking a cake which I’ve promised my mom for her belated birthday cake.
After a while, at about 10+ in the morning, I noticed my grandpa was home. He didn’t look as good as before and looked very pale. This was so not him, as he is always very strong and active. With my grandma beside, I asked him about what had happened and he told me (in a slurry tone) that he was dizzy and his tongue was stiff and frozen. It sounded like a stroke to me at first, but I just couldn’t accept the fact and trying to figure out what was that, from what I have learned in my study so far, in the third year.
After contacting the doctors, we figured out that we needed to send him to hospital ASAP and the doctor confirmed that it could be stroke.
Only then I knew this was the moment that the Lord had kept me at home for, all this while. I had even attempted to go out to KL within this week, but God has kept me stay put for this moment. I truly thanked God that I was still around this day to have been there during this time of need.
I truly thank God for His graciousness and His love that it was just a mild stroke, as my grandpa was still able to walk and moved and talked (slurry). In all this, I truly believe that God is in control of everything and we shall not be afraid or be shaken.
I also believe that God is going to do greater things in days ahead, in spite of all this. I also believe that He will move within my family, to bring restoration, unity and breakthrough in our relationships among and within our family, and between man and God.
We would pray persistently for full restoration and recovery upon my grandpa, physically and spiritually.
I believe that the harvest is here.
Praise the Lord!
I believe that God is in control in every area of my life. Do you?
No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what the Lord has prepared for those who love Him 1 Corinthians 2:9

Spiritual Hunger (27/12/05) Part 1

It has been a few weeks already since I left Adelaide on the 4th of December. Staying in Adelaide for 10 months has truly been a great experience to me and has also impacted me in great ways. Even as I am having the summer holiday now, I started to miss Adelaide a lot already….. Especially the church I’ve been attending, Paradise Community Church, and also where I am serving in the choir. I could truly say that I was well-fed spiritually in that church. In addition to that, to serve and join the choir has added to my spiritual growth and my contentment. Indeed I understood now, the importance of praise in our lives as a CHIRSTIAN.

I am also thankful that I am at home now….. Malaysia. It is truly great to be back here in my hometown, where I can taste the food that I missed so much and the home cook. Indeed the abundant food here has caused my tummy to go in havoc and I am having digestion problem this few days. As this problem persists, my heart longs for “solid” spiritual food. So far, the spiritual fill that I have here are from books, daily devotion of the international standard textbook – Bible – and some Christian worship songs.
Although I was physically well-fed here, I still sensed about something that was missing in my lives here in my hometown. I can confidently say that it was the spiritual food that was lacking – the solid spiritual food. Even in this situation, I truly believe that my Great God is still with me, as He has promised me (us) in Deuteronomy 31:6 that He will never leave you nor forsake you.
Even as the Lord has placed me here this holiday, I still pray persistently and with faith that He will come to bring revival and transformation into this place and also in my family and also in the church, that his disciples will rise up to burn for the Lord. I also pray that He will use me to make an impact in this place, as I showered forth His love and peace in this place.
Another important thing that I realized in my lives here is that I need to praise Him in songs of joy EVERYDAY. I guess that was what is lacking in my lives right now – to praise Him in every situation, in sickness and in happiness.
Praise the Lord for this revelation!

Is there anything lacking in your lives?
Have you started praising the Maker of all things, The King of kings?

Spiritual Food And Regeneration (27/12/05) Part 2

After I blogged “Spiritual Hunger” in the morning, God answered my cry for spiritual food after lunch today. I thank God that He has led me so that I brought some sermons on the DVD back from Adelaide. I was led to listen to the series of “The Spirit of Intimidation”. As I continued Part 3 of the series, I was truly rejuvenated and refreshed and fed spiritually when God chose this hour to speak personally to me through this sermon message.
Little did I know that I was being intimidated throughout this holiday, as Pastor Ashley said in the sermon that ‘intimidation drains off our authority and the emotional man’. After understanding what the intimidation has done to my life, I felt my inner man rising up again, soaring like an eagle.
For those whose hope is in the Lord shall renew their strength and they shall soar on the eagles’ wings, they shall run and not grow weary, walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31
This message truly has impacted and spoken to me so powerfully that I was strengthened spiritually. I also believe that there will be a great breakthrough around the corner and at the end of the intimidation.
Praise the Lord!
Even as Pastor Ashley said, I would keep pressing onwards and will also continue to pray for strengths/resolve to continue this work and this battle.
I truly praise the Lord of Glory for speaking into my lives freely and mightily.
Hallelujah!

God’s Intervention (23 Dec 2005 Fri)

Fear gripped me when I received the reply from my lecturer, after I appealed for pass for the failed supplementary result. I tried appealing for pass as I got credit for the continuous subject in the second semester. I was afraid to tell my grandpa, who is my sponsor in my study now, as I was scolded the last time I failed a subject and had to repeat the second year subject for a year. Now that it happened again, I was just fearful of how he will react this time. This also meant that I had to repeat another year to complete the subject, before I can proceed to my final year, fourth year.
I prayed persistently for God’s favor upon me, that He would intervene in this situation and cause my grandpa to show favor to me as well, and to continue giving his support and some words of encouragement (to say it short…… not to scold me, as words of encouragement is my main love language). Some how, when I prayed about this problem, God placed His peace within my heart and gave me the assurance that He is in control. This peace gave me the courage and the strength to face the response that I’m going to get from my grandpa.
The repeat that I did in 2004 was truly a life-changing year to me and I truly learned a lot more than I did in my 2002+2003. It is also a blessed year to me, as I grew stronger in character and in my spiritual life. Indeed, I also believe that God has a greater plan for me in 2006. Praise the Lord!

After dinner tonight, I spoke to my grandpa. I believe God is truly there with me when I spoke to him. My grandpa spoke gently to me when I told him about the reply that I got from my lecturer. I also reassured him that this is the course I’m interested in. After a short chat, he told me to work harder and assured me that he will continue the financial support in my years ahead. I truly praise the Lord with joy, as I hopped happily, leaving his room. The Lord Almighty has truly answered my prayer and intervened in this situation.
Indeed, I look forward to what He has planned for me in 2006 and I’m still praying for revelation from my Great God of Revelation, to reveal to me what He has for me in 2006.
No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what the Lord has in store for those who love Him. 1 Cor. 2:9

When I was online today, I met my college friend on the msn and we chat for a moment. We spoke about girlfriend and I told him about the leading of the Lord, even in our BGR and our love relationship and also to be sensitive to the voice of the Lord. As we chat along, we also spoke about spiritual mentoring – how I walked with mentoring with a spiritually matured mentor – in hearing from God and making tough and unclear decisions.
After that, I was truly surprised when my friend asked me to be his mentor and partner in his spiritual growth. I truly believe God has another new ‘assignment’ or ‘mission’ for me this time, that He is bringing me into another level of spiritual growth. I thanked God for His favor.
I told him that I’ll be more than happy to help and I also told him to try to get another mentor, whom can be made more available to him in his university, as I can only meet him online once in a while only.
God is really gracious and wonderful, too marvelous, beyond comparison, and too awesome and powerful. Praise our great God, who is worthy to be praised forever! Hallelujah!

Favour (14/12/05)

As I sat down to think about my weeks before I came back home to Malaysia for holiday, I realized and noticed about the abundant blessings that God had lavished in my lives so far. There was a burning desire within my heart to have it blogged and typed out, to share them with my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ.

Firstly, I thanked God for sustaining me through the period of examination and also for the peace that He placed in my heart as I worked hard for the exam. He has led me and taught me to learn to take things one by one and not to worry about too many things in one time. He also gave me the strength to persevere through this period of hardship. But I also rejoice in my sufferings, because I know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, who He has given us. (Romans 5:3-5)
I was also amazed at how He has kept me strong and gave me strength and kept me alert as I stayed awake overnight to study to my best for my third and fourth papers, without consuming coffee. Praise the Lord for all these and for enabling me to run the race well.

I just got my results last weekend and I rejoiced greatly for His blessing, as I got two credits and one Pass Level1, which was the best result I’ve ever got so far. I truly thanked God for the blessings and also for giving me the strength to persevere.
Even though I failed the supplementary viva of a subject that I haven’t cleared the last semester, I still praise God and looked forward for His miracle to dwell in my result, as I appealed for a pass for the subject, seeing that I got credit for this subject, which is a continuous subject from the one I failed.

Even as I got the results a few days ago, I feared of telling the failed supplementary to my grandpa, fearing that I would disappoint him and made him angry, as the last time I failed a subject, I was scolded. I was planning to tell him a bit later, after I’ve settled and confirmed about the appeal. But somehow, my grandma mentioned about the result during dinner today and I was left no option but to tell him. Guess this should be the day that the Lord has made to tell my grandpa the result, as I have been praying for the Lord’s favour upon me that I would not be scolded. After I’ve told my grandpa about my result and the appeal that I’ve made, I praise the Lord that I’ve found favour in my grandpa, that he didn’t scold me, but gave me some words of encouragement.

In addition to the appeal that I’ve made to the university, I also believe that God is in control of this and whether or not He would allow me to pass, it is the best decision for me and my lives, and I would be ready for all that He is going to do in my lives. Somehow, I still feel in my heart that He would grant me with pass, but I’m ready for whatever that He would be doing in this appeal.

God has also been so good to me that He enabled me to go to Gold Coast last week for my sister’s graduation in Queensland University and to meet my dearest parents, whom I missed so much, and also my second sister there. It was really a pleasant and great trip. I also believe for breakthrough in our relationship within the family, that there would be unity among us. I truly praise and exalt God’s holy name, as I can see the breakthrough happening bit by bit and gradually. Even as we’ve left Gold Coast, I still believe that the Lord would complete the work in the heart of each one of us.

I prayed for more breakthroughs within my family, during this holiday at home and also that the Lord would work His love through my body, that I would shower forth His love to each of my family members, to bring transformation and breakthrough to the glory of the Lord.
After dinner tonight, my grandma mentioned about changing and cleaning the shirt of the reindeer (soft toy), which my siblings and I gave to my grandpa for His previous birthday and which he put in his car. I took this opportunity to share and give him one of my small, tiny shirt for the reindeer. Without knowing how much impact it would be, I gave the shirt and wore it onto the reindeer in my grandpa’s car. Upon leaving, my grandma showed him the new shirt that was on the reindeer and I can see the joy and the smile in his face as he left. He even waved to me before he drove off, as I sent them off at the door and said goodnight. This is the first time ever I felt so close and connected with my grandpa. I was overjoyed to have blessed and enlightened his heart. I believe that the Lord is working within his heart to speak forth His love to him. And breakthrough is around the corner now. Praise the mighty and faithful, loving God.